Not really sure what this is going to be about other than random thoughts, some that seem painful to me any way.<\/p>\n
I have been struggling lately with the feelings of where do I fit in. I know it shouldn’t matter, but that I should fear God above all, and I am, in a sense, talking about fitting into His kingdom. You see I have been feeling that I am not wanted around the body of Christ and I definitely know that I am not welcome around those of the worldly things; they make that very clear. So I am where do I fit in?<\/p>\n
See satan has been attacking me and I know the thoughts are coming from him. That’s all he can do; play on my thoughts, which play on my emotions, which in turn distract me from serving God. Yet it comes out of my heart, so my own heart is what has ultimately deceived me. What a wretched man I am.<\/p>\n
Like Paul, who will save me from myself and this body of flesh in which I dwell? Christ alone has purchased me with His own blood. See, satan can distract me and wreak havoc on my emotions, my heart, and even those around me who are struggling, as well. Why? Because it comes back to hurt me and tear me down.<\/p>\n
I laid down my life to Christ Jesus so, in a way, all things can be counted as loss to Christ. Even the breath I draw in now. But when I see the ones I dearly love hurting, struggling, well it tears me apart in a way that I can’t explain yet. I trust God with them. At least, I say I do. But as I type I wonder have they become my eli? Time will tell.<\/p>\n
And if He calls me up before Him before that time it will be for His Glory and His desire to do so. In the mean time I can only Hope that God would choose to use me for His kingdom, to Glorify His name and not to shame Him….<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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