Aside from reviews, I have been silent on the blog as of late. It sure isn’t from a lack of mental ramblings. I guess it can best be described as being ornery. For some reason, I tried to find excuses that I could masquerade as reasons not to write any posts. Pretty dumb on my part, especially since it didn’t solve anything.

Have you ever caught yourself wanting to ask God what in the world He was thinking giving you a task to do? I can’t say that I have ever asked it that way, it seems wrong to phrase it like that, but I’ve wondered something along those lines. There have been a few times that I wasn’t far from saying, “God, You have to be crazy for wanting me to do this.” He doesn’t make mistakes, so obviously the problem is with me, not Him. Some people chalk it up to needing to learn from the experience. While I don’t disagree, I think we use that as a cop out.

I have a lot to learn, both spiritually and professionally, but it doesn’t seem as easy as I think it should be. In school, the teachers would tell you what you needed to know. I did my best to memorize it and give the correct answers on the test. Learning to be like Christ isn’t like that. Head knowledge must be converted to heart knowledge, or it is just a bunch of trivia that you can use to sound smart. We need wisdom, we need God’s wisdom. I heard it put this way one time, “wisdom is knowledge put to work.” God gives us plenty of ways to learn about and know Him. What do we do with that knowledge? For that matter, what do we do with those opportunities?

The idea that following Christ would be easy didn’t come around until well after He ascended back into Heaven. He never said it, I have never seen that in any of the New Testament books, so why do we think that? Why do I expect to just naturally understand what the Bible says?

As Christians, we can expect hard times, but you have to admit, the retirement plan is awesome.